I think you feel that because you were a virgin when you married that you have missed all the fun that others had before settling down to marriage.
I had no idea how I'd do it all over again.
I am sure your husband would be very hurt if you tell him about your fantasy and you would lose his trust and create immence chaous in your life.
Both of them ended up in a emotionally bad place.
That he is somehow lacking.
She had no idea her sadness stemmed from years of denying her true self.
Description: She ended up having a affair not with anyone we met as a couple.